Seven Fears / Phobias
- Phonophobia/Ligyrophobia, Auditory Defensiveness, or PTSD: Loud or unexpected noises give me heart-racing, stomach-clenching, brain-sizzling terror. I hate alarm clocks. I leave the room if someone is going to use a blender. I plug my ears when I flush in public restrooms. The PTSD side comes in regarding little kids crying, when I can’t see them. If I can see them and know they’re really okay, and just throwing a tantrum or something, I’m fine. But if I can’t see them, I get intensely distressed and can’t shake the horrible fear that they’re being abused.
- Mottephobia: Moths scare me because they don’t seem to have fear of humans. Most insects and animals run away from you – moths don’t give a shit, they just fly up in your face and flap around! I hate that. I have spent many a night hiding under my covers for fear of moths getting me.
- Acridophobia: Crickets and grasshoppers freak me out for the same reason moths do. Crickets are worse about this, because unlike other bugs, they don’t jump away from you – they jump into you, crazily! Gahhhhh! I do think crickets look very cool, though.
- Sinkholophobia: This is an unofficial term, but when that massive black sinkhole opened up in Guatemala, a new fear of mine was born. I’m usually not at all scared of typical scary things – horror film monsters don’t scare me, etc. But this shit SCARES ME. *shudders and snuggles into Daddy*
- Agliophobia: Pain…scares me more than death. ‘Nuff said.
- Maieusiophobia: Giving birth. *shakes head vehemently* Never gonna happen.
- Misophonia: This one isn’t really a fear, but I was hard up for filling this thing out. hehe It’s really more of an annoyance – it’s about quiet but repetitive noises such as someone chewing or an animal grooming itself. It drives me nuts.
Seven Fears and Phobias
- Living and/or dying alone. I could actually just expand that to BEING alone, but that’s not actually true. I don’t fear actually being alone. I don’t like it, but I could. Going through life alone and dying alone though? Yeah, that’s tied with the next for my biggest fear.
- Abandonment is my other biggest fear/phobia. People I love leaving me, or not caring about me, or turning against me.
- Loss of loved ones. This ties into the above two, but they are all different in their own ways. I know growing up, drifting apart, growing in different direction, death, and so on are all a natural part of life, but I still fear losing the people I care about.
- Effing up where the people I care about are concerned. I fear hurting those I care about, putting them in no-win situations, making a bad situation worse, and just generally being worse for them than I am good.
- Not being able to protect those I care about. An example would be the proverbial back alley mugging situation. I’m mentally and emotionally comfortable with me getting hurt or even killed, but I have a LOT of fear that I will fail to protect my loved one(s).
- Blindness. I don’t live in constant fear of it, but I depend on my eyesight heavily. I don’t want to, but I believe I could handle going deaf. Blind though… that’s scary.
- I consider myself to be somewhere between Atheist and Agnostic, but I was raised Christian. So I will admit that I do still have a fear of dying and finding out I was wrong. That is not to say I fear dying. I fear being wrong and going to hell. As I understand Christianity though, if you go through the whole believe/confess/be baptized schtick it should be out of a love of god, not a fear of hell.